oh snap!

I go through a lot of moments where I find something breathtakingly beautiful, but the moment is ruined simply because I do not have a camera. I can't handle it anymore.

That's why I have decided that...

I, Madison Beardall, will carry my camera with me everywhere till the day it breaks. When it does break, I promise to purchase a new one as soon as possible.
A secret project.
I am excited.
It is a lovely project, I think.
I can't wait to show you when I finish.
Prepare yourselves to be amazed.

Radio, radio, tell me something I wanna know, wanna know.

Avec Amour,
Madison

C'est Bon.

So much wasted in the afternoon,

so much sacred [time] in the month of June.

Maybe I should write my summer list of things to do on paper instead of leaving it as a mental note. I have forgotten so much of it, and now, I am bored out of my mind. No to mention, all my friends are gone or not available. C'est bon... je pense... 

Here. Take a goggle at these beautiful women:

Dorothea Lange

Jessie Tarbox Beals

Margaret Bourke-White

(The captions have a link to their bios.)

Hello, Darling. I believe it is summertime.

*post script: Is it sad that all I can think about is books (and photography)? Is it sad that all I really have to talk about is books (and photography)? Is it sad that all I want to do is read a book (and take pictures)?
Maybe you understand, but maybe not.
It's fine. I still love you.

I want to be...

Day Five: Definition of LAHVE

Love is what brings family closer, what keeps friends laughing. The two "f" words you can't live without.

Love is a stranger who pulls over to help you change the tire on your car.
Love is a dear friend who listens to your nonsense.
Love is what makes and sometimes brakes a girls heart.
Love is simplicity.
Love is the sound of the man's voice that makes me melt.
Love is the sound of laughter.
Love is the tears that you shed for another human being.
Love is adventure.
Love is the adrenaline you feel when you try something new.

To my friends:
I love you guys. Really, it's no joke. You add color to my black and white photograph. Your tears are my tears. Your joys are my joys, too. You guys help me realize the beauty and simplicity that is all around me. You allow me to adventure, try something new. I trust you. You are great. You are awesome- you have the most amazing smile (Validation)

To my family:
I love you. I would be nothing without you. Our frustrations and the pain we feel only makes us closer. With you, I can be anything I want and I don't have to worry about being too much of anything. We are all odd with many differences, but we come together to make one lovely family. You are my friends- some of my bests. Don't change. Don't leave. Let's be a forever family.

Give love. Take love. Be love.
Lahve always,
Madison

tears, twinkle lights, and confusion

 my mom said it was time to put my
twinkle lights away.
i am very sad.

 it was a eerie to think that school was truly back in session. (eheew, don't even mention it, Maddiey!) i am still on strike with grammar- okay, all except for when i am in english...

as fourth period ended, i walked solemnly down the hallway by myself. at first i wasn't thinking about much, and that's when i realized something odd (odd is my new word... for a little while...). i realized i didn't remember ever coming to school this morning! i was a little confused how i got inside the school ( i wonder if my face showed it... people probably found it funny). i had to convince myself that Brenna's mom gave me a ride to school, which really did happen. when i reached the end of the hallyway (oh wow... i am not going to delete that hilarious mistake... hehe.), i met up with brynn. it was an odd greeting. i was still trying to figure things out. i am not sure what fried my brain. it must be the new year and new adjustments. (Maddiey, you better adjust quick!!!)

i desperately want to drive. but i know that with all the ice, there is no way my mom would want me to take the car. one day i would like to get my own car. a junky car. old fashion. yes, i want an old fashion, junky car.

i have to laugh at my almost-ten-year-old sister, Kenedi. she is trying to understand the fact that Joseph isn't Jesus' father- Heavenly Father is. She understood that Heavenly Father was Jesus' father but she kept getting her Josephs mixed up. She was confusing Joseph (Jesus' half-father) with Joseph Smith. She said, "So there's two Josephs? One is Joseph Smith and the other is Mary's Joseph?" I find it funny that she called him "Mary's Joseph."

be happy and try not to get confused.

lahve always,

Madison

p.s. friends, just because i  sign the end of my blog with Madison doesn't mean i want to be called that. please still call me Maddiey

p.p.s. i got a new light bulb for my reading lamp.

hello world

hello world,

welcome to the new year.

i love new years. it's a chance to become new. a new you. its a chance to put behind your past completely and just look forward. i don't believe in the whole write-down-your-goals deal. we all know that we end up writing down more goals than we can handle and we forget more than  half of them by the middle of february. just live them! don't write them down- live them!

i've decided that with this new year i am not going to care what people think of me- their opinion doesn't matter anymore. i am going let out the me that i have been nervous to let out. i may be odd, but who cares? 

dear old self,

 SEE-YUH!!!

dear new self,

hello! it's nice to finally meet you!


Hello World
Lady Antebellum
look it up

be

I wanna be,

wanna feel free.

walk on the beach

no shoes, no cares

feel the wind blowing through my hair

i'll let the waves hit my feet

feel the warmth on my face,

feel the heat

i don't care if people stop and stare

i want to just take in that salty air

I wanna be,

just wanna feel free.

A Time to Think

At Christmas time, I lahve to stay up late when the house is silent and peaceful. I turn on the tree lights and sit on the far end of the couch on the far end of the family room. Don't ask me why I sit so far back, I just do. I like to sit back and enjoy the breathtaking view. I lahve those moments were you sit and think for hours on end with no worrying about what is going to happen in the future.

Just think.

No worries.

No pain.

Just a Time to Think.

The great thing about thinking like this means that you think of all of the nonsense you want. None of it has any importance. It may not even make any sense. The great thing is, is that you don't confuse anyone. Well, unless you confuse yourself... but there is no need to explain your thinking, you just let go and think anything you want to. The only person it needs to make sense to is yourself.

Never be afraid to sit awhile and think.  ~Lorraine Hansberry, A Raisin in the Sun

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post script:

I love to read the Newspaper.

No, I don't read it a lot.

But when I do, I LAHVE IT!!!

I don't always care what is written in the paper, 

just the act of reading it makes me happy.

Be OK

I just want to Be Ok
Be Ok
Be Ok
I just want to Be Ok today.


Christmas is just around the corner. YES! Our house now smells of goodness. More and more lights are being strung. Cozy music is being played and sung. Wow did you notice? I just made a rhyme.

Our house now smells of goodness.
More and more lights are being strung.
Cozy music is being played and sung.


Except I think that if it were to be made into a poem or song it should look like this:

More and more lights are being strung.
The house now smells of Christmas goodness.
Cozy music is being played and sung.

Bleh. I wish I could write.
I wish I could write amazing words that bring out the emotions I feel. I wish I could truly portray myself with... I don't know how to finish the sentence... example right here... hopefully it makes sense.

I also wish I made more sense. Why do I have to be so confusing? The thing that's strange is that it makes perfect sense to me. But everything makes sense to me.

That makes sense,
because it doesn't make sense,
because you don't make sense,
which makes sense.

Wow. So true.

I said something today that made me think.

I said something along the lines of "You never know what the future brings." And then I just decided to add some more of my nonsense goodness.

"You never know what the future may bring. But what you decide today can make a difference in how your future will turn out."

Its just like a gift. You won't know what's in the gift until you open it. Hmm... I forgot how I was planning on finishing this bizarre thought... well.... something... bleh hopefully you get me.

That's what's going to be great about marriage. Your hub will understand you no matter how ridiculous or oustrobogulous it may be. He always takes your side and trusts that you know best. Wow, I am one step closer to marriage. I am old.

I am sorry for rambling... 
Okay... I will spare you.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.
Have yourself a Merry little Christmas.

Best wishes to all,

Maddiey

(Why end like a letter, signing my name? Meh, it makes me feel better so why not? Join the club if you would like. Everyone is welcome...)