Day Two: First Love

I am different from everybody else. (Duh.)

Okay, let me be more specific. I was never one of those girls that went around crushin' on every boy she met. You see, I don't ever remember actually loving a boy. Now that I am in high school, I have changed. I am still not the go-around-and-crush-on-every-boy-you-meet type of girl, but love had a different meaning for me. I have friends. Guy friends. If he is always kind to me, I may end up liking him more than I originally planned. That's how it goes.  I don't just like the guy for looks. I like him for the way he treats me and those around him. 

These last few days, weeks, I have thought about guys I've liked. At the time, I convinced myself that I didn't really like anyone at the moment. But that's when I realized that's a lie. I have sort of fallin' in love with this kid I never thought I would ever fall in love with. He's slightly dirty (only slightly). But whenever he talks to me, he talks to me like a friend. He may say some rude/crude things to other people, but never to me. It's nice.

But let's not talk about that... I have already said enough... MORE than enough...

For day two, I wanted to share a story from when I was young. The first time someone loved me. First Grade. At first, we were just friends. We would work on every project together, eat lunch together, talk together at recess. (Ha- funny story- we would eat lunch together, then go to the bathroom to wash our hands. Since we were different genders we had to separate to our bathrooms to wash our hands. Whoever would finish first would wait in between the bathrooms, waiting, waiting for the other one to finish.) You could say that we were best friends.

Then, before I knew it, people were snickering and teasing. That's when I finally realized that maybe we weren't just friends- to him at least. That's when I considered that maybe he did like me... 

People continued to tease and our friendship was torn apart. I don't like him like that anymore, but I admit, it would be nice if we were still friends.

So I kinda sorta think I might like you a tiny speck of a bit more than I originally planned, said the Maddiey who is quoting MissLindy. (sorry Brynn, I just had to steal that way of quoting from ya...it's slightly different so it should be ok...)

Lahve always,

Madison

Day One: Introduce Yourself

Okay, here we go...
I try to make life amazing. I take in every moment, considering it perfect- I would have it no other way than the way it happened. I love romance oh-so much, but I try to keep myself from getting to caught up in the "perfect"  or fairytales that only comes in novels. Some say I will never die because I laugh so much. That's a lie. I will probably end up dying of laughter.

Since you already know me,  I am going share some secrets I have told no one instead boring you with things you already know. Some are more fears than secrets, but oh well.


Secret: I am excited for the life that is farther away on my path of life. But even more than that, I am scared to grow old(er). I have nothing against old people, in fact, I love them. I just don't want to think of my abilities to do things being limited (because I am old).


Secret: I love loving. When I meet the right man, I will marry him. I will love him. Although I want love to last forever, I am horribly scared it won't.


Secret: I hate obsessions. They may seem good at first, but in the end they just tear you apart. Once I find myself starting to become obsessed, I regret even loving- whatever it is- in the first place. I would rather just love.

Now that I have shared my secrets, please don't be afraid to share yours. Leave a comment- share a secret.

Lahve always,
Madison

my dearest readers

my dearest readers,
first off, i would like to thank you for actually reading my blog. little do you know, it means a lot to me.
2nd, i would like to ask you a favor.
please, please, PAHLEEZE, leave comments. i don't care if they are lame- they would only be lame to you- just leave a comment. now i hope that isn't a lot to ask of y'all... i promise to leave comments on your blog as long as you return the favor by doing so on my blog.

I lahve y'all lots! Don't forget that!

Lahve always,
Maddiey

oh p.s. please don't be afraid to follow my blog

every girl needs romance

  

this one is for you Marisa Oswald- one who 

thinks even two blades of grass can be in love

Romance is like chocolate- women love it and can't seem to live without it. (i made that up... i personally think it is a good one!) 

Every girl needs romance. Just sayin'. Last night I watched a movie- can you guess what kind of movie? Yep. Romance. I have seen the movie before, but for some reason it ten times better this time! I guess it's because I haven't read/watched any romances yet this year. Yesterday was the first. It was so good I cried. Well, almost. I stopped myself before it got weird.

My mom challenged me to read books that don't involve any romance. It is one of the hardest things I have ever done! I've attempted this one book at least three different times. It's difficult but I am doing it. It will definitely be something I will be proud of.

love always,

Maddiey

hmmm...

tears, twinkle lights, and confusion

 my mom said it was time to put my
twinkle lights away.
i am very sad.

 it was a eerie to think that school was truly back in session. (eheew, don't even mention it, Maddiey!) i am still on strike with grammar- okay, all except for when i am in english...

as fourth period ended, i walked solemnly down the hallway by myself. at first i wasn't thinking about much, and that's when i realized something odd (odd is my new word... for a little while...). i realized i didn't remember ever coming to school this morning! i was a little confused how i got inside the school ( i wonder if my face showed it... people probably found it funny). i had to convince myself that Brenna's mom gave me a ride to school, which really did happen. when i reached the end of the hallyway (oh wow... i am not going to delete that hilarious mistake... hehe.), i met up with brynn. it was an odd greeting. i was still trying to figure things out. i am not sure what fried my brain. it must be the new year and new adjustments. (Maddiey, you better adjust quick!!!)

i desperately want to drive. but i know that with all the ice, there is no way my mom would want me to take the car. one day i would like to get my own car. a junky car. old fashion. yes, i want an old fashion, junky car.

i have to laugh at my almost-ten-year-old sister, Kenedi. she is trying to understand the fact that Joseph isn't Jesus' father- Heavenly Father is. She understood that Heavenly Father was Jesus' father but she kept getting her Josephs mixed up. She was confusing Joseph (Jesus' half-father) with Joseph Smith. She said, "So there's two Josephs? One is Joseph Smith and the other is Mary's Joseph?" I find it funny that she called him "Mary's Joseph."

be happy and try not to get confused.

lahve always,

Madison

p.s. friends, just because i  sign the end of my blog with Madison doesn't mean i want to be called that. please still call me Maddiey

p.p.s. i got a new light bulb for my reading lamp.

hello world

hello world,

welcome to the new year.

i love new years. it's a chance to become new. a new you. its a chance to put behind your past completely and just look forward. i don't believe in the whole write-down-your-goals deal. we all know that we end up writing down more goals than we can handle and we forget more than  half of them by the middle of february. just live them! don't write them down- live them!

i've decided that with this new year i am not going to care what people think of me- their opinion doesn't matter anymore. i am going let out the me that i have been nervous to let out. i may be odd, but who cares? 

dear old self,

 SEE-YUH!!!

dear new self,

hello! it's nice to finally meet you!


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