call me crazy.

I would apologize for not posting in a while, but then I would be lying- I'm really not sorry. You would probably consider it pathetic if you were to see how many hours I sit here, staring blankly into the computer screen.

Now, here's your options: read this rant of my selfish desires or skip reading this post entirely and find something more worth your time.

Here we go.

I wish I would spend more time in libraries and reading books. I want to take home large stacks of books and pile them all around my room. Instead of countless hours of Solitaire, I would read a variety of novels and write down the lines I like. It would be acceptable to read more than one book at a time, even though my mother gets frustrated when I do so. I would read during the free moments in my classes, regardless of the thoughts I have racing through my mind of what people might think of me. It is truth to say that the world inside a book is far better than a life full of high school drama.

Hey! I think I'll try it.
But first, I'll need to get a library card.

"Save the Shop Around the Corner and it will save your soul."

-Maddiey B.

here we go again.

So... it being the first day of school, why don't I just tell you about myself (because that's what the first week of school is all about).

Hey. I'm Maddiey. Maddiey Beardall. I like photography. I like to read. 

I didn't have one thought (well, maybe one...) about lying/cheating in get-to-know-you bingo this year (hmm... oh yeah I play football... uh-huh...)

My teeth ache terribly because apparently I am stressed about the first day of school and I didn't even let my Self know (I grit my teeth when I am nervous or completely focused... it's possibly one of my favorite traits about myself).

 I freaked out a sophomore by telling her about my obsession with Nicholas Sparks/ The Notebook as well as my favorite actor, Tom Hanks. Oh I also told her my favorite memory was laying on a public walkway. (I almost seriously put "good times" after that, but that drives me nuts and I don't feel like sounding like "Wentzy" No, not now)

I walked into PreCalc Honors and had to remind my Self that smart people take smart classes like PreCalc Honors (unless your me, and then you are just one of those stupid people who think they can take smart classes).

I FINALLY finished my summer honors english homework. (Note: It is the first day of school. Yup, procrastinator is my middle name.)

I love to write, although I'm not very good at it. If I knew how to paint, I would be a lovely painter. I love to sing, sometimes in the shower. I am insanely white for August.

My first happy thought about school: I can't wait to see Avery Taylor (As in I-don't-know-you-very-well-and-I-can't-explain-why-I-am-excited-to-see-you. Sorry, Avery, if that creeps you out. It's not supposed to be that way... It's a compliment...)

Second happy thought: I can't wait to see Mme Winkleman!

Basically, I can't wait to go to French.

I kinda want to be more than friends.
Avec Amour,
Maddiey
15 Pebbles

confusion and boiled blood.

i don't understand.

In the search of my true identity, I have found myself to be more relaxed and care free about the little things, like little imperfections that are in each of us. I have let go of pathetic arguments (for the most part, anyway) and I've learned it's okay to state my opinion and stand up for myself. I try to not let the little things boil my blood.

i am chill(ier).

I've been care free for long enough that now... I don't understand how people loose there temper so quickly over things that don't matter. It comes as a shock to me and I become confused. Now I am not saying that I am perfect and never loose my temper quickly about such things. When I do something of the crazy manor, I find my Self confused with what I've done.    


When they tell you you're crazy, they are paying you a compliment.


post script: I was very fortunate to be a part of an Alice in Wonderland day. Rabbit Hole, Croquet, and yes- a TEA PARTY.

A VERY MERRY UNBIRTHDAY TO YOU, my friends.